Seven years ago I took this picture — in a classroom that never truly felt like mine. I was always reminded of my place, always feeling overshadowed, unheard, and sometimes even pushed down. Back then, I had no idea who I was becoming. Today, I stand here as my own person. I am featured in a book where I had the chance to tell the beginning of my story — the start of my adult journey. I have a podcast where I laugh, cry, sip wine, and share not only my story, but the stories of other incredible people. I never saw that coming. And at 47 years old, I started a new career. The beginning was not easy — I struggled, doubted myself, questioned if I even belonged. There are still days when I feel lost or unsure, but there are also days when I love it. Days where I feel proud. Days where I know I’m growing. I’m part of an amazing group of people now — people who lift each other up, who support one another, who show up with kindness and passion for what they do. For the first time, I feel like I am in a space filled with encouragement instead of doubt. I want to touch lives in a positive way. For years I believed I was leaving the opposite mark — because that’s what I was told. But today I see my strength, my progress, and my courage. And I’m proud of myself for stepping into a new chapter even when it scared me. This year wasn’t easy. Depression showed up. It stayed longer than I wished. It took time to climb out — step by step, little by little. But I’m ending 2025 feeling motivated again… feeling like myself again… feeling hopeful. My wish for the new year is simple: ✨ To continue growing. ✨ To stay motivated. ✨ To not let depression settle in again. ✨ To keep choosing myself. That’s all I can do — and I’m proud of how far I’ve come. Here’s to more healing, more learning, more courage, more joy. I may be almost 50, but my journey is just beginning. 💛 Cheers to the next chapter. 🥂

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Sunday, November 8, 2009 since nobody... is reading my blog, I will just write whatever I want whatever is in my head, my feelings my depressions, that will keep people way for sure, but what's the point, my life suck so bad, that I can't even think other words anymore, sometimes I ask God why not just take me from here, what is the point of all this, leaving like this, like looser, like a big pathetic looser I don't even know if I am spelling looser right, don't care, i am just really tired of leaving meaningless shit life. there I said it, more like I wrote it, typed actually, blah blah blah.

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009 Bad Dreams or just very weird dreams? last night I had the most weird dream as long I can remember... "people were being smashed in some kinda of metal thing, can't really describe, there were car crashs that would blend them like soup or mash potato in color of blood, and I could see the soup dripping on the floor and I remember being terrified that, that could happen to me.. " I wonder if it means anything?!?!

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GREAT SITE FOR QUOTES I love quotes, I used to carry around with me a notebook, and everytime I'd see a quote a liked, I would write it down, I haven't been doing that anymore, but I found this website with great quotes from movies, life quotes and etc. Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player That struts and frets his hour upon the stage And then is heard no more: it is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing. William Shakespeare Life is what happens to you While you're busy making other plans. John Lennon We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give. Winston Churchill Where there is love there is life. Indira Gandhi The tragedy of life is not so much what men suffer, but rather what they miss. Thomas Carlyle this is just a few, here's the link. http://www.allgreatquotes.com/life_quotes.shtml

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009 Michael Weatherly Happy Birthday I could not forget to make a blog wishing one of my favorite actors, Michael Weatherly a very happy birthday. Michael was born in July 08, 1968, he plays Anthony DiNozzo in one of the hottest show on Television, NCIS. Turning 41 today and he looks better than never. Happy Birthday Michael and many many blessings for you.

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EIGHT AND LAST ONE Tuesday, April 15, 2008 MY MASK I was dying on the inside so I put on a mask so that people would not see it... but I noticed I was dead and now I cry my death.... I look everywhere and all I see is a rotten world and I am part of this rotten life while I still here... I don't know much to say, only that I am really weak for not being or not .... I think I just don't exist in this world. You know when you feel there's something missing like a piece of you? I am this way I feel there's something missing, nothing seems real, I cant be sure of anything, if I have my feet on the ground or if I am wake or dreaming, its not the reality I wanted to live, I look myself in the mirror and I just don't like what I see in that reflection and at the same time, I am not what I wanted to be, not even close, I didn't do things that I wanted to, I did things that I did not wanted to do, I did bad things and I have to live with that, with this moments for the rest of my life. I lived through horrible moments that I just cant shake them off, I don't know if I will ever be able to forget, moments that made my life, myself into nothing, today I cant get answers for those questions that wont leave my mind, who am I? maybe just a crazy woman who doesn't know what she wants, maybe none of this has meaning, but maybe the hole in my heart my soul will be fulfilled when I live life. but do you think that anyone knows about this? no nobody only me and this blog, people who will read, even if someone I know reads this blog they wont know its me. I have no one to turn... that's why I wear this mask, so everyone thinks its fine, but they don't know that I am dead on the inside.

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SEVEN Tuesday, April 15, 2008 I wish you could see inside of me. Lyric Inside Of Me - General Sih I cannot, explain, what, I feel when im close to you What i'1l do I cannot, not breath No words to say Everytime i see your face, i see your face I have to love you, but inside of me I cannot tell you, i want to I wish someone for you That cares the way i wanted I want to do, i want you I know that, I have to, To love you But inside of me Please don't tell me again I'll take care, about yourself But far away I wish you'll be okay, you'll be okay! I have to love you, but inside of me I cannot tell you, i want to I wish someone for you That cares the way i wanted I want to do, i want you When I see you I dont know what to do I just look at you Wishin' one day Be near from you I have to love you, but inside of me I cannot tell you, i want to I wish someone for you That cares the way i wanted I want to do, i want you!